Here I am, a few month later. Things have certainly gone up and down in the previous months. I have to say though, I know leaving organized church was the best thing we could have done.
I wrote that my husband was facing losing his unemployment. Well, as Satan would have it, he did shortly after I wrote that. But, God in His infinite mercies for His children made sure that he had not 1, not 2 but 3, (yes 3!!) jobs to choose from one week after we were notified he would lose his unemployment. In this area of Pennsylvania, that is pretty much unheard of! So now he is working a full-time job and a part-time job (for extras) and all is well.
As far as not going to church anymore is concerned, I can see the ‘downs’ in our lives as attempts by Satan to get us back into it. When the road gets bumpy, each of us feels as if it was due to leaving the church. Things were smoother for our lives when we were there. But now, each day brings a new bump, uphill struggle, or twist in the otherwise narrow road.
But is this because we left the ‘good’ of the church behind? I don’t think so. I am reminded of Job…that poor man, never losing faith yet constantly being tempted to. That man had every single reason to denounce God and his faith, yet he clung to it like a lifeline. Our situation, though not quite as bad, is every bit like his. Satan is tempting us to get back into a structured church by creating all of these ‘faith’ road blocks. Why is Satan doing this? Because, when the road was smooth sailing, God was not the important part of our lives, and this is what Satan likes. Now that God has become central to all we do, Satan puts up faith roadblocks to make it seem we did the wrong thing. He wants us back in an ungodly, unbiblical atmosphere because he is then more apt to keep us from being godly.
If we think with our human minds first, our first thought during a crisis is … “why?! I keep doing as God asks, yet He doesn’t listen!” Or, “we had it so much better when we were at church. Maybe we should go back?!” This is the natural response in the flesh. And quite honestly, has been a battle in itself to defeat that kind of logic. But fight it we are, and much to Satan’s shagrin, we are winning. How could we not? With God, all things are possible!
Now we see each pitfall as a temptation from Satan. But now, instead of lamenting over it, we pray over it. We show God that we know what it is, and we are standing firm in our knowledge that for every ill will Satan throws our way, God throws HIS will our way and all is well when we follow it. Our lives are bumpier, but with those bumps we know we are in God’s loving care, otherwise, those bumps might not be there at all. Satan only goes after those who are in God’s hands…why bother with the others? They are his anyway…so he must spend his efforts trying to take back those that follow God.
We have done different things in our worshipping, and at times have felt the Power of the Holy Spirit flowing through our home. Those are the times when prayer is filled with regret, remorse, praise, and love. Those are the times our children actually get into the praying and start praying for other people. Those are the times we sing a song full of our hearts to God, and make ourselves His all over again. The Holy Ghost comes in with a vengence sometimes and it floors us. Admittedly, this doesn’t happen all of the time, but, it is what we strive for each time we worship Him.
During the course of a day, we can sometimes actually feel the Spirit move us to speak. Our hair will stand on end, we get goosebumps as we speak. It is in these times that we know for certain our choice to leave behind the structured church world was not our decision, but God’s. And we know that by following His will for us was indeed the best thing we could have done. We still miss the people and the fellowship, but not as much as we begin to miss the feeling of the Holy Spirit within our home. There is nothing more powerful than that. And it is every bit as exciting as it was the first time.
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